jeg

jeg har kommet til et viss punkt der den minste tingen gjr vondt
jeg vet det kun er psykisk, men kroppen min flger etter og det blir vanskelig st
vanskelig puste, vanskelig late som alt gr bra nr det ikke gr bra
eller vanskelig late som jeg vil komme meg videre
jeg str oppreist i dusjen og fler beina svikte meg
jeg m bort
men jeg har ingen steder g

jeg er en sta person, jeg er en sta idiot som fortsetter hpe
jeg hper p noe som jeg har ftt bekreftet m avslutte
det er ikke frste gangen -
men denne gangen var ulik de tidligere gangene
du kunne se meg i ynene og avslutte det
du kunne gi meg en forklaring
du kunne gi meg en avslutning
du lot meg g
men jeg vil ikke videre
jeg vil ikke la deg g,
jeg vil ikke se deg med noen andre enn meg
og det gjr meg til en egoist
jeg kan ikke tvinge noen til vre med meg
selv om jeg vil
med hele mitt hjerte
selv om det la deg g kommer til delegge meg

jeg blir sint p meg selv
fordi jeg fler for mye nr jeg ikke kan
jeg kan ikke kontrollere meg selv
det m vre noe galt med meg
det er noe med stress, forventninger og viktige mennesker
det ender alltid drlig
jeg hndterer ting for drlig
men jeg vil ikke
jeg vil ikke la dette g

dette pvirker meg mer enn at
mormor kanskje har kreft og kanskje kommer til d
folk har viktigere ting tenke p
andre ting deale med enn prve fikse meg
folk skal ikke mtte fle at de m hjelpe meg
eller si at det er for mitt beste

kanskje jeg br vre alene
for skne andre
eller.

we can't help but wonder how much difference one person makes in the world.
we look inside ourselves, questioning if we have the capacity for heroism and greatness.

but the truth is, every time we take an action, we make an impact.
every single thing we do has an effect on the people around us.
every choice we make sends ripples out into the world.
our smallest acts of kindness can cause a chain reaction
of unforeseen benefits for people we've never met.

we might not witness those results, but they happen all the same.

the point where all things were possible.
the moment when a choice was made, or an action taken.
the breath inhaled before a first step forward.
and the most lasting chain reactions that are started by
those moments and actions and choices
are always the ones that are started by love.


"I'm only going to say this once, so I want you to listen, alright?
No matter what you did, don't give up. Do. Not. Give. Up."

"Why"
"Because if she loves you, she'll forgive you."
"You really believe that?"
"I have to. Otherwise there's no point.
There is no life without love. Not one worth having anyway."

don't you have those moments sometimes?
you know, when you just,
you think to yourself, god, i love this woman, and i always will.


there was this one time
i fell asleep in the porsche outside of bill's house.

- just once?
becca found me.

it was, like, two or three years ago, i think.
and karen invited me in and made me breakfast.
now, i know that becca,
i'm sure, strong-armed her into inviting me in.

but, that's not the point.
she made me breakfast, and she didn't have to.
you know, she made me this omelet that was delicious.
perfect breakfast.
you know why? because she made it for me.
- mm.
and then she told me to grow the fuck up
and get on with my life.

but that didn't matter.
because it was one of those moments
where i decided, i resolved,
that i was going to keep on fighting.

you know, i've, i've lost many battles,
but i've never lost sight of the war.

no retreat, baby.
no surrender.
jesus christ, runkle, are you weeping again?
- well, it was sweet.
you. you moved me.



, Oslo

mimi nguyen, 1994. oslo. jeg er skikkelig lat, samtidig som feriemodus er p hver eneste halvtime. appreciate; - comments - venneinvitasjoner








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